SOS

Tonight after laughing and telling funny stories to the girls about Megan, I had an unexpected email from the Survivors of Suicide group.  It really threw me.  I got on to see how it felt to read around on there and after almost having an anxiety attack I canceled my account.  Now for some reason I feel overcome by guilt.  Ugh.....I'm finally, after all this time, at the anger part of grieving I think.  I hate this and want all of it to just go away.  I'm going to bed early so I can wake up to a new day and hopefully feel better.